confidence

I was told yesterday by the crazy old lady who teaches with me that she is there to help "build my confidence.

she also pulled the C card on me- claiming that she is working to help distract herself from her husbands cancer.... HELLO I am working to distract my self form my cancer for 3 days out of every week... sorry you cant pull the cancer card on some one with cancer- #youaredoingitwrong

but yea- my "lack of confidence" i realized is me saying "Umm... ok? are you sure?" to all her crazy ideas instead of "No, i disagree- you are a crazy old lady"

i guess i would rather look weak then like a bitch? then again- she might also think i have low confidence because i started to cry when she was talking non-sense at me and i really just had enough of her going off book of the lesson plans we created together. some how she misunderstood everything we planned for the next two weeks and took it as a change to go buy more crap for the classroom- instead of seeing what we had in the BIG FULL supplies closet!

the other thing she does that is driving me up a wall is the fact that she feels the need to tell me what i should and shouldnt be doing, because i have cancer. clearly i should not be sweeping the Hay from the sensory table, some how cleaning out side closet with all the dust and germs is bad for me? where the hell is she getting her information

i guess i dont understand how alittle dust is something to worry about when i work in a preschool with 3/4 year olds who are all sneezing, pooping, and chewing on toys. I tell her this and she goes "oh- do your doctors know you work here?"

of course they do! why would i hid that i work at a preschool. the doctor has to sign a form and give me a TB test so i can work at the preschool! she is sooo crazy

so when it comes to confidence i have alot of it... I just dont want to be the little bitch who yells at the 60 year old lady for acting like a grandma instead of a teacher